God works with soil and seeds. He doesn't work with water first. ©Janine Joi 2007

Who gives me my drive and skills in making salves that work? Who gave me the ingredients, in what amounts, to make a salve that is now used to fade many scars and stretch marks?? Who made sure that my secret wounds were healed? Who gave me inner peace, healing me of deep wounds? Jesus Christ.

Raised a Catholic, I was taught that God was some big ogre in the sky who would smash my fingers as I was holding on for dear life. Throughout my teenage years, I was either wanting to kill myself, or figuring out ways to do it that wouldn't result in just maiming myself, but in actual killing, but not hurting anyone else. Of course I didn't know it then, but I really wanted someone to love me and SHOW it.

In high school I had a best friend who got deeply into Jehovah's Witnesses. Of course, I learned about it. Didn't like what I saw/heard.

Also in high school, I took instruction in the Mormon religion. Again, I didn't like what I heard, particularly the theory on how black people came to be in this world. My friend, who was one of those teaching me, was Black. It 'bothered' her to know why I wasn't going to become Mormon. !!!

While in the military in Germany, someone gave me a book about Christ. I read it, and it made sense to me, but there was no follow up.

Later, when I moved back to Sacramento, Ca after getting out of the military, I met a gal who told me about Jesus Christ. Cindy Kramer/Powell. [she had two kids, Andrea Kramer and Neal Kramer, if anyone knows her, please let me know!] Cindy and I became good friends. I drug my feet in asking Jesus to take over my life because I thought *I* would change. I thought my laugh would change, who I knew I was, would change. Then I got up the courage and on June 6, 1979 I lay in my bed about midnight and asked God to forgive me of everything bad and wrong I had done. I told Him I was sorry and asked Him to sit on the throne of my life, I asked Jesus to be my Lord, my Savior.

Nothing changed. LOL Not my laff, nothing. I didn't even FEEL different. About a week later, everywhere I walked and every vehicle I rode in, I felt like I was 9 feet off the ground. Literally. It was as if I walked on a cloud. It was STRANGE, but it was REAL.
Since that time, I have been healed and delivered of many emotional, spiritual & physical hurts, wounds and abuses. Jesus showed me and gave me, love.

This Christian walk is all about learning how to forgive, how to trust God, how to be kind, how to be patient, how to love, the way HE wants us to love. We are to treat our neighbor as we treat ourselves. We are to love our neighbor as we love ourself. Tall orders there, but not insurmountable. Love ourselves. Love others. Forgive ourselves. Forgive others.

Without Jesus, I would be living, but I wouldn't be ALIVE.


If you would like to pray to accept Jesus as your Lord and Savior, just talk to Jesus right now. Tell him your heart. If you have a prayer need, feel free to email me.

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